Baby Watch 2011

As many of you know, Cameron and I have been trying to start a family for a while. It has been almost 2 years now that we have been actively pursuing having a baby. We have never really tried to prevent getting pregnant, but it just has not happened.Who knew having a baby could be sooooo difficult (for me anyway)! I have been poked and prodded with nothing to show for it but some scars and currently some bruises. I have been through so many emotions. Hope, anger, sadness and even a little depression. Right now I am back in the hope stage, but I am tired. It is hard to see so many people (like at least 10) around me having babies when that is what I have wanted for such a long time. Of course, I am happy for everyone, but it is still hard. I know I sound like I am whining here and I apologize. Moving on.........

I have been going to a fertility specialist since February. I started treatments about two weeks ago. I have been going to Columbus every other day! My poor veins have had about all they can take of those needles. They draw blood every time I go. However, this is all for a great reason so I will suffer through......LOL! The good doctor says that everything is progressing well and I should be able to get the next dose of medicine on Friday (another needle, of course). I have several viable follicles. The nurse said to me, "This could be a risk of multiples." Let's hope no more than two..............I thought that maybe I should just keep this all quite, but I figure the more prayers that are going up to God the better chance we have of making this dream a reality. If this cycle doesn't work then we can try again next month and the next and the next. Let's just hope this works the first time!!!!!! I don't know if I can do this for too long! If this treatment does not work then there is nothing else we can do short of winning the lottery. Our insurance will not cover any other treatment and, well, we just cannot afford to pay thousands of dollars. So here is my request from my family and friends......Please pray that my body cooperates and the meds work. Maybe, if all goes well, we could be pregnant in the next month! Parenthood is a scarry thought, but I can't wait!