Months ago I was afraid I would never be able to have a baby. It was a really hard time and very emotional. Now, by the grace of God and a little help from the fertility doctor we have our miracle! One thing I have been looking forward to is feeling the baby kick. I have known there was something in there since they told me I was pregnant, but to actually feel the baby makes it so much more real. At about 18 weeks I started feeling flutters, at 19 to 20 weeks I felt stronger flutters, but for the past week I have really been able to feel this little one move. The baby has been kicking every night as I lay in the bed and every morning before I get up. Cameron got the chance last night to really feel her moving in my belly! I have wanted so badly him to feel it for some time now because it is the most amazing, weird, miraculous, wonderful, heart filling thing I have ever experienced! Every time I feel her move it puts a smile on my face and fills my heart with love. Sometimes, I just like to lay in the bed or recliner just to feel her move. It is amazing how much love I feel for her already. I feel like my heart might burst once I finally meet her in February! The fear that I had that I might not ever experience this moment was overwelming. That makes this so much more special for me. I get the chance to feel mine and Cameron's baby girl inside of me. I can't thank God enough for allowing us to have this miracle. This chance to show the world to a little girl that will be our world. I am so excited and scared. I pray that God guides us through parenthood and helps us to make the right decisions. This little girl means so much to both of us and I will cherish each movement and each kick everyday until she finally arrives.
XOXO Pamela
